(via 1newbeginning)
So it has been literallllllly forever since I last posted. This past semester really sucked. This is my last week of class and next week are finals. I’ve been feeling really shitty about myself and my weight and just life in general. I guess I have been in a rut. I downloaded insanity and I’m on my third day. I am way out of shape so today was cardio power/resistance. I had to stop half way through because I pulled just about every muscle in my body the first two days and I literally could not do any more. I’ve decided to use this again for motivation. None of my clothes fit me and it’s really embarrassing. I’m focused on getting toned/fit and more healthy, not just losing weight. When I posted previously, I was trying to starve myself, thinking that was going to work long term. I was around 130 maybe? i dont remember in the beginning of the summer. I gained almost 20 lbs this summer from drinking alcohol, smoking and eating everything in site, and just eating unhealthy foods and eating late every single night. I am not giving up drinking, I just choose water or crystal light and vodka instead of cranberry juice or other mixers. I’ve been doing well these past few days with food. I’m eating a lot of protein and trying to incorporate as much fruits and vegetables as I can. I’ve also been reducing my portions. Before I started insanity, I was 141.4. Today I am at 138.9. I am going to weigh myself weekly, but I’m more focused on fitting into smaller clothes because obviously muscle weighs more than fat. Thanks for reading and supporting me through my journey to happiness and healthiness! <3
